The Path to Happiness

Ah yes - it will be quite a painful road I am sure. But only 3 days in and I fufilled one of my resolutions. To make a decision to be happy. My husband and I decided that the charade should be over and agreed to end the marriage. Now we are trying to iron out the details and the kids are of highest importance. I have started making a nice room for them where I will be staying. Its a familiar place to them - so hopefully we can make some good memories there too.

Today was hard and I am sure it will only get harder, but in the end it will be worth it. I thank all of my friends and family that have been so supportive. I do know if I could get through this with out them.

Now the journey begins...

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year to everyone. I am glad to put 2008 behind us and am looking forward to a much better 2009. Maybe I will even be able to make a resolution to find my own happiness. Needless to say, my brother thinks I should stay in my marriage because of my kids. I'm sure my mom feels the same way. And my husband has been so understanding. But my heart and soul are just pushing me in another direction. I have a feeling finding happiness will be a very painful road. I love my kids more than I could ever imagine possible. In fact I think that nobody even has an idea as to what love really is until they have children. Only then do you realize how powerful it can be. If I could find even half that I think I would be glowing. I just need to allow myself to make that decision. Its quite a New Year's Resolution. That and the one to lose 10 more lbs. LOL

I hope you all have a healthy, happy and prosperous 2009!